Sometimes, I just wonder what God is up to my life. We just received word today that our house sell that we were counting on to close in September has fallen through. Of course, this is the second time we have had a major disappointment concerning our house in Raleigh. The couple who were leasing it with the expectation of purchasing it are separating.
I ache for them and their relationship, but I really struggle with what God is up to. It seems that since we have made the commitment to come to Richmond, we have had one test after another. They just keep adding it.
Is there a modern day Job parallel here? I don't really think so. We have may too much to be thankful for, and God has provided in to many wonderful ways.
But I cannot help but wonder if I have missed something in this whole sense of call and relationship. What is God doing?
I do not know what God is up to, but I do know that He continues to try to teach us to depend on Him. He has been so good to us. Maybe we just have our eyes in the wrong place. We have so much to be thankful for compared to so many people in this world. We have jobs we love; a family we love and enjoy; more things than we ever need; and lots of good friends.
God is not laughing or holding us hostage. He is not doing that to the church either. I know that Louisa gets discouraged at not finding a pastor, but God is not picking on you. He is just reminding you to remain faithful in the midst of the journey. Good things will happen eventually. God knows what He is doing.
I just wish He would let me in on the knowledge. Lord, forgive my unbelief, but I have to admit that it is getting harder and harder to understand. Thank you for providing for us. So while I am in asking mode, please sell the house. That house has been a place of ministry and love for the last 13 years. But we are grateful you will keep providing while we wait! I hope Louisa and the Pastor Search Team can do remain faithful and believe "the best days are yet to come."
